Change

He's grown a lot!

I've changed a lot recently too, I feel. I don't seem as outgoing as I used to be...I think I'm becoming dull, really dull. At get togethers these days I just sit there and don't really do much. Think too much. There's just too much on my mind: work, lab, prelim, life. I guess I really need to learn to successfully separate all these things. There are times to just relax and chill. I don't even feel like playing games anymore. But as you get older responsibilities grow, and there are expectations to meet. Not really what others expect of you, though that's part of it, but what I expect of myself. And when you fall a little short, or haven't really met the success you are looking for, it's well, kind of depressing. It's just that it's been nearly three years here, and I've yet to obtain any really new results, in lab or life. How do other people do it? Keep trying I guess, but it can get tedious, especially the lab work.

Anyways. This Friday I helped plan a surprise birthday party for Debby, and I think it went pretty well. Helped make a cake that tasted pretty decent. It's chocolate with mousse frosting. It was an elaborate scheme of taking her to gym and having people surprise her at home. I don't think she suspected anything (I hope), but I didn't get to see the surprise...part of making it more realistic. I think she was pretty happy, so all the work was worth it (especially the workout preparing the cake).